The Beginning of an End

I should be going to bed, but I'm not.
I'm posting on my blog that I hasn't been posted on since November.
Things are going to be changing for me pretty soon.
A lot of things.
Almost too many things.

I don't know if I'll be able to handle all the changes.
I was pretty comfortable not knowing the future.
Or perhaps I just wasn't thinking about it honestly.
I don't know.

But it's coming - there's nothing I can do about that.

In a month and a half I will be sharing a bed with
a beautiful, smart, loving woman,
and I'm scared.

In three and a half months I will most likely be living in California again,
and I'm scared.

I'm excited too - don't get me wrong - but these are significant changes.
I don't know if I'm ready yet.
I pray that I will be.
Because it will happen whether I'm ready or not, and it will be awesome and new and work, but it will all happen.

I just pray that I'll be ready.